19/07/2026
After scootering in different places, navigating long distance, traffic, passengers and luggage I would consider myself experienced. But the universe always finds a way to challenge me, remind me that I am not as experienced and not as skilled.
In the green rolling rice fields and mud tracks of the Kampot countryside I got stuck in the mud.
In reality it was a minor hiccup but my internal monologue experienced extreme highs and lows. The low of being laughed at by onlooking locals and my children as my feet sank further into the jammy clay, the spinny wheels spattering mud all over my legs, my frustration at the lack of strength to lift the scooter high enough to free it. The panic of being stuck there flooding my brain. It took a while for my brain and body to align.
My brain always panics first, itās the flighty one. Only after several minutes of wrenching at the bike could I rationalise the actions needed and find the mental acuity to unstick us.
Doestevsky wrote: Pain and suffering are always inevitable for a large intelligence and a deep heart. These are the attributes I hope to cultivate, in myself and my children. Hardships help lead to a deeper conscious. If Iād stayed back home where thereās a saftey net, a life on auto: with community, family, the state to catch us and always pick us back up I would not get stuck in the mud but would lack the space to reach my potential.
Some places are desirable for this very reason; the safety net. There is a trade off to living with a saftey net. Like an overbearing parent who lawnmowers everything before us to make our lives easier- a state that gives us a solution to everything- eventually intrudes, inhibits and limits our growth. It grows and extends into every aspect of our lives; legislates and limits, becoming hungrier, demanding more and more from us until the fulcrum tips it the other way and it becomes unsustainable. Crushing taxes, costs that are crippling and absurd policies.
Away from what is familiar we can only rely on ourselves. If we find experiences that develop our inner world, our cerebral and spiritual selves as sovereign people, instead of simply existing in a capacities of consumer and contributor we can learn to free ourselves.